This week’s song was begun at least a year ago or more. I met a friend for lunch and when I asked how he was, as you do, it was a rare time where someone has to tell the absolute truth because there is no hiding, no gloss.
And it was heartbreaking. A tragic accident had just happened within his family, and they lost someone – far, far too young.
I honestly don’t know how a family copes in the face of such an overwhelming loss, and my friend’s sense of it was so strong that I couldn’t stop thinking about it, and reeling and hurting for him, for a long time.
I guess this song is my impression of what it may be like to be hit with a bat like that, how do you even view it as real, explain it? How long would it take to heal? Will you ever heal?
I sincerely hope this does it justice.
The lyrics in the verses are more pictures than meaning, but I hope you get a connected imagery from them.
The chorus, however, is simple: ‘Help me, I’m helpless.’
While the music is (mostly) tender and gentle, it is an unashamedly epic song, with a long instrumental build that I felt must keep going and growing, beyond the length and realms of regular instinct for such a thing: just keep piling and spiralling the mess and feeling further and harder and hellbent up into the heavens because that is surely how it feels to know the shock.
I have been planning to do this one the whole year; I do love it – for release and for comfort.
I hope it gets across the heart and soul to you too.
It was worth waiting the whole year.